i did an all-nighter last night.
all by myself.
i think it's harder that way, because you have no one to talk to.
and so, instead, you start to talk to yourself.
i was so tired, and i felt like mush.
like i had been drugged and stung with anestesia.
i was talking to myself,
and thinking to myself,
and i was talking to the walls and to my lamp and the television
about just how we all go on.
and it was nice, because even though i was sharing my secrets with them,
no one was listening.
no one could tell on me.
and when it got so late,
like, just before the sun came up,
but it was still dark and the moon started to hide
from the h
let's run away.
and not come back for a really long time.
'cause when i'm with you,
the more of me i tend to find.
we'd walk on the horizon.
dance in the ocean.
and the city lights
will be our stars at night.
we'd get drunk off the rain
falling from the sky.
the sun we never see,
'cause at night we are alive.
somebody tell heather
this is goodbye.
i can't wait any longer
'cause i've been waiting all my life.
and if she's looking for me,
tell her him and me will be
somewhere outside.
nevermind.
just tell heather
i said goodnight.
the sixties were just so much better, you know? there were no computers or cell phones, although i must admit that cell phones are a great help. but anyway, i'm getting off track. what i mean is, people had much more imagination way back when. kids actually went outside and ran around. teenagers got in more trouble i suppose, but i view that as a positive thing. it means that they had more inner resources than people in the twentieth century. plus, doing wrongs helps you learn and do more rights. this sounds like an essay for school. oh well. i think technology has destroyed all our personalities. we're not even humans anymore, myself include
these walls protect me from the truth.
and us all from the truth.
we're kept stupid and naive,
so when we find out,
won't it hurt more?
so let's play house.
they all lied to us.
"it's for your own good."
well i'm not buying it.
not even for free.
they say it's easy to our faces.
but i've listened in on their secrets.
when i turn my back,
the rainbows turn into fire.
and the clouds turn into spikes.
and the butterflies to blood.
and i'm scared.
Because I'm only a kid once so I wanna break all the rules, get in trouble and live life on the edge. I'm tired of living a boring life with parental restrictions. I hate being at home where people always tell me what to do. I'm only happy when I'm with you guys. Maybe when we're older this will all change and we can do whatever we want. Even walk alongside of the road, watching the cars and their bright lights pass us by, looking up at the stars and wondering what it will be like when we get there.
The other people in the world can't stop
What I feel for you,
And what I do for you because
If they did then I'd just drop
Into total insani
Are you alone in the world
With no one to hold?
Are you caught in the rain
Where you'll always be cold?
Are you trapped in a mirror
Can't get to the other side?
Are you stuck out at sea
Can't escape from the tide?
I wanna hold you tight and never let go.
No matter where you are I want you to know
I'm here for you.
And I love you too.
Are you caught in a fire
Can't find your way out?
Can you make any sounds
If you scream and you shout?
Are you safe in your bed
Where forever you lie?
Are you holding the knife
That will soon make you die?
Don't go.
I'll always be with you.
Even if your far away.
I wanna hold you tight and
Everyone talks about getting laid.
And going to work so that they keep getting paid.
But I have one true love in mind.
There are many varieties and many kinds.
Food makes the world go round.
Its like an orgasm in your mouth.
Food makes the world go round.
Its like an orgasm in your mouth.
So talk about TV,
And sex and school.
The Caribbean Sea,
Vacations cool.
But I only need some food to make me happy.
After I eat Ill take a nappy,
OH!
Food makes the world go round.
Its like an orgasm in your mouth.
Food makes the world go round.
Its like an orgasm in your mouth.
Let the Healing Begin
Hush now, dont cry.
Everythings gonna be alright.
Ill always be beside you.
I see the tears in your eyes.
I will forever hold you tight.
Ill always be beside you.
Think about all the times.
Thinking up all the rhymes
Throughout all of your sighs.
The wind whistles and the angels chime.
I wont leave you here
Alone.
Youre all alone.
Youre feeling so cold.
So Ill warm you up with my hands.
I hear your groans.
All the things that you have told
Me melt away the sands
That are blocking you in.
Looking at the sky.
Everythings gonna be alright.
Ill
The sky is beginning to get cloudy
Or is it just me?
I sway in the same direction that the wind blows, being whisked away by the breeze.
It feels good.
But I always live in fear.
Sometimes,
Its not so bad.
Until that pounding, heart-wrenching headache comes over me.
I clench my fists tighter and tighter to try to numb the pain.
I fall on my knees in agony, searching for sanctuary
And then
And then
Black.
Dupion veins form over my skin.
My circulation is cut off, preventing any oxygen from gaining passage.
I try to scream for help,
But no one hears.
Or is it that no one wants to hear?
Or maybe th
Rachael Aki
Oh, everyone! I love you all and I cant wait until we get to see each other again! It was a fun week Theres only two days left! How about we relax today and tomorrow well have a ROCKIN PARTY! Rachael giggled.
Oh That sounds Lovely. Aki sighed.
Doesnt it?
No, actually. You killed us all and Im the only left. Now Im gonna die, too!
Oh, I did? Thats bad I guess that this thing isnt going to help me clear my criminal name. Rachael gasped.
You bet! And now, there can be
i did an all-nighter last night.
all by myself.
i think it's harder that way, because you have no one to talk to.
and so, instead, you start to talk to yourself.
i was so tired, and i felt like mush.
like i had been drugged and stung with anestesia.
i was talking to myself,
and thinking to myself,
and i was talking to the walls and to my lamp and the television
about just how we all go on.
and it was nice, because even though i was sharing my secrets with them,
no one was listening.
no one could tell on me.
and when it got so late,
like, just before the sun came up,
but it was still dark and the moon started to hide
from the h
let's run away.
and not come back for a really long time.
'cause when i'm with you,
the more of me i tend to find.
we'd walk on the horizon.
dance in the ocean.
and the city lights
will be our stars at night.
we'd get drunk off the rain
falling from the sky.
the sun we never see,
'cause at night we are alive.
somebody tell heather
this is goodbye.
i can't wait any longer
'cause i've been waiting all my life.
and if she's looking for me,
tell her him and me will be
somewhere outside.
nevermind.
just tell heather
i said goodnight.
the sixties were just so much better, you know? there were no computers or cell phones, although i must admit that cell phones are a great help. but anyway, i'm getting off track. what i mean is, people had much more imagination way back when. kids actually went outside and ran around. teenagers got in more trouble i suppose, but i view that as a positive thing. it means that they had more inner resources than people in the twentieth century. plus, doing wrongs helps you learn and do more rights. this sounds like an essay for school. oh well. i think technology has destroyed all our personalities. we're not even humans anymore, myself include
these walls protect me from the truth.
and us all from the truth.
we're kept stupid and naive,
so when we find out,
won't it hurt more?
so let's play house.
they all lied to us.
"it's for your own good."
well i'm not buying it.
not even for free.
they say it's easy to our faces.
but i've listened in on their secrets.
when i turn my back,
the rainbows turn into fire.
and the clouds turn into spikes.
and the butterflies to blood.
and i'm scared.
Her eyes in which I sink, her hair a veil she hides behind,
Her lips the lock to the words I long to hear her say.
Aloof, unattainable, mysterious, undefined,
She is the dusk, the dawn, the night and break of day.
As I wait for the moment my lips will touch her hand,
The hand that is gloved, concealing the secrets of her skin.
I wait for her prescence, her shadow, pleasure so bland,
Knowing yet that t'is a priviledge I had to win.
I long to hear her sigh, to see a blush upon her cheek,
I live for the moment my eyes will meet her own.
This sweet torment, this love I cannot speak...
Can it be that I am meant to suffer it alone?
Depression
This never ending road
Im not sure where it leads
People dont believe my pain is real
But its a disease
Screaming on the inside
My world is crashing in
I will always hate
Everything Ive been
People ask if Im okay
But they dont really care
This unwanted life Im living
Is just too much to bear
Ill get up eventually
And Ill make it through the day
Just dont be surprised
That I dont want to stay
aha. i'm working on a novel.
leaving for vacation in 2 weeks - august 15
new phone in 8 days, SO LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT. rival<3
i jus redid my room. it's nice. (:
i can't believe that there's only one month left of summer. 5 weeks left, and we started with 11 weeks. that's ridiculous. September 8. i'm kind of excited to go back, i guess. finally not the underdog freshman anymore. bahah. i'm thirsty.
read my stuff? comment?! leave me love!
you're goin away
and i'm feeling the same
thing day after day
i can't let it go.
everyone in this room
they got troubles too.
secret stories and
lies that we never knew
xavia...
who will save us?
your smiles on fire.
and still my heart
will let you down.
the sound...
la la la... la lala la. la la laaaa...
la la la... la lala la. la la laaaa...
i don't wanna be
your favorite enemy
not when i could be
lovin you alright
why can't it be
no two people feel the
same way at the
same time?
xavia...
who will save us?
your smiles on fire.
and still my heart
will let you down.
one heart to break, one heart.
one heart to bre